A Christmas Wish: Some Forward Movement

If there’s one thing I’ve learned in life, it’s the fact that very rarely are one’s thoughts, feelings, and dilemmas, entirely unique to oneself.  And this can be immensely reassuring for us all, as well as being a great form of human connection between us. It’s a massive reason why I feel happy and suitably ‘qualified’ to write realist fiction at this time in my life. So I was wondering what I could talk about in this Christmas post and the word ‘stuck’ popped into my head. So what do I mean by this?

Well no matter how constructive I’m sure many of you have been during these times of restrictions due to covid 19, no matter how resourceful, I’m betting many of us have been feeling stuck, stranded, stymied and at a standstill. Because if we are being responsible living with the virus in our midst, then we will have been following the rules, and following these rules has been restrictive, confusing, literally at times stifling, with mask wearing, and ultimately we’ve been forced to stay where we are, both geographically and socially. No new places to go to and explore and no new interesting people to meet. For many it has been brutally lonely and isolating, and for all of us it is, and has been, a threat to our well-being both psychologically and emotionally. Just knowing that the barriers are there has an oppressive subliminal effect. We’ve used our heads to cope with Covid 19 and the prospect of a workable vaccine, along with all the political upheavals but what about our hearts? The heart we put into our creative life and the heart we put into our well-being, our personal growth?

If we think of ourselves as a boat on an ocean, navigating our way through life, moving in new directions, following fresh currents, discovering and exploring new coastlines, new cultures, while fishing for new creative ideas and inspirations along the way, then we can see that our 2020 Covid life has forced us to remain high and dry on the shore, far from the reach of the tide and all that the ocean of life has to offer. We know that a vaccine might help to make that tide creep towards our boat, so we can get it moving again, and that is something to be so immensely grateful for, but we have no real idea of how long it will take and when that will be possible. We just don’t know. And after all these months of restriction, many of us won’t even be able to visualise it on the horizon, not with new strains of the virus making an appearance like an actor taking his cue to walk on stage and add further tension to the dramatic arc of the play. Just the other day, it was confirmed that here in the UK, in England and Wales, is a new variant of the virus, with a higher infection rate, so on Boxing Day here in Scotland we are pretty much going into full lockdown again for at least three weeks, as superbly guided by our first minster, Nicola Sturgeon. It’s so hard to take this is in, never mind the repercussions that will reverberate from this new development for people’s jobs, mental health, and the economy. And at times, it feels like life has seriously changed for many years to come. So where do we find any forward movement in our lives?

Now, I’m sure many of us have been carrying on with our creative projects regardless, because a lot of that drive comes from within and the creative nuts we may have stored previously for ‘rainy’ days. I know I’ve been painting and writing as usual. I have been going along at a slower pace though, because family relationships became very important throughout the year and that’s been a really good thing – a high priority thing. But increasingly, I  find myself yearning for more freedom, or just the knowledge that the freedoms are there, should I feel so moved to make use of them. And I think this need is an aspect of personal development and the desire to reach our full potential. We need to feel a sense of forward movement. You could call it, a sense of flow. It’s in our human nature and our creative nature. And this flow is accessed through tangible stimuli. You can see, taste, smell, hear, and touch aspects of our environment to trigger our flow. You can’t find these on Zoom, Twitter, or Facebook.

So my Christmas wish is for some forward movement for myself, for you, and for everyone who has been feeling stuck. Until our tide comes in, all we can do is keep the faith, stay as safe as we can, keep others safe, and know that freedom will be ours again and that we will relish it all the more after its absence. What we can do in the meantime is to explore the shore we are stranded on and learn what we can from there.

Just like I happen to be doing in my current WIP painting, where I’m defining the sand, pebbles and shells in the foreground, while the sea lies calmly waiting.

But we can also look out at that sea and decide where we might like to go, what we might like to do, on our near or far horizons, when the time is right. Until then, we wait, but carry on creating.

Here is the finished wall hanging I showed the stages of in my last post and I’m so happy I went back in to enhance it.

Wishing you all this and a Happy Christmas!  I’ll be back with some more topics in 2021. Until then, a Xmas card from my part of the world, in a cottage in the Scottish Borders, from me to you. There’s no snow yet, but it might be on its way in the weeks to come. Take care of yourselves, and do let me know how you are doing :>)

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24 Responses to A Christmas Wish: Some Forward Movement

  1. amleta says:

    Your hanging wall is Fantastic 😍😍😍

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  2. Ari says:

    Very well said! I found, even as an intense introvert and home bird, that I am getting very cabin-feverish. The need to get out and about, to actually see people (not usually a favourite of mine) has been growing.

    It then angers me when I see more and more idiots who are claiming it’s “fake”, some even as they are hospitals on ventilators… the world has gone mad. But it is these people who are making us go back into lockdown over and over, those who refuse to do the basics- wear a mask! This pandemic seems never ending and I tack on more days to this endless time whenever I see more maskless faces.

    But oh my, that painting is stunning! It had me yearning to visit the beach that is close to us, to think of better times, warmer, calmer times. How lovely.

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    • lynnefisher says:

      Thanks, Ari, and lovely to hear from you :>) And thank you for liking the painting and it’s message of calm and joy in nature. After the first lockdown, hubby and me paid one visit to a beach nearest to us and when my feet were standing on the sand, I felt a sense of relief! And yes, the cabin fever is bedding in now, I agree. Just to see people, be among people, in the supermarket is a tonic.

      Hmm – the conspiracy theories have been rife and someone I know has shared them with me. It’s been building and building, not much coverage on TV, but it is creeping in, just touching the surface of why people out right refuse to wear masks on principle, rather than accidental negligence, or why they don’t want the vaccine. These theories which are now colouring some people’s beliefs are going to have addressed if we want the vaccine to be our saving. Yes, the world has gone mad!

      Oh well, here’s hoping writing will be a constructive form of escape! Cheers for now :>)

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  3. Hi Lynne, everything you wrote spoke to me, to my feelings about this year of 2020. Well said, Lynne, well said. Love your artwork.

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  4. galenpearl says:

    I don’t think anyone who can produce a WIP painting and a wall hanging like those (both gorgeous — love the vibrant colors in the wall hanging) can claim any sense of stuck-ness. Just kidding — sort of. Really, those are beautiful. But I do get your point, and you explained it perfectly.

    Your wish for forward movement immediately brought to mind movement in our bodies. One way many of us have gotten stuck is by becoming so sedentary during this time. We can’t travel (or at least travel is discouraged), we can’t do many of our usual activities, and so we sit. I find that if I take the time to move my body — taking a walk, doing some tai chi, just simply stretching — I feel less stuck, less stagnant. If I can’t move in my usual external patterns, at least internally I feel the energy waking up and moving through my body. Your specification of “forward” movement suggests walking for example. Moving forward physically might in some way give us a sense of breaking the logjam we are collectively experiencing.

    Just some thoughts. So now I suppose I should get up and take the dog for a walk! Hard to follow my own advice sometimes!

    I hope your Christmas was merry. We had a compartmentalized day — I saw my two sons in the morning, and then later my two daughters and grandkids. Trying to keep everyone safe and minimize exposure. We all kept our masks on and I missed the hugs. I’m headed up to the cabin in a few days to spend the rest of the year in my usual retreat — back on New Year’s Day.

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    • lynnefisher says:

      Lovely to hear from you Galen! And thank you for the compliments. You are right about some kind of forward movement being a way of stimulating the spirit while everything seems stuck. My favourite things to do are walking to music and driving to music, and as you suspect, it’s modern country! And I dance in the kitchen for fifteen mins to get the stuckness out of my system for a while. Reading is another ‘escape’. Art and writing are useful too. However, I really miss swimming, even though my visits were sporadic. I miss being underwater, moving, even though it only lasts for a few seconds! And I miss the freedom to visit people or do some new things. For Christmas, hubby and I have stayed here, but my sister and mum over the border did a very similar arrangement to yourself and your family with staggered visits in the home from relatives.

      You cabin sounds the perfect place to be, because it would be easy to imagine and experience far more freedom. No reminders what you can’t do. But of course, keeping people safe is the most important thing. Now we have TWO more transmissable virus strains here, so we are up against it big time.

      Wishing you peace and some joy from your cabin stay :>)

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  5. Wishing you and your family a Happy Christmas and the 2021 you have outlined Lynne.

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  6. Well said, Lynne! This snippet resonated with me especially “I find myself yearning for more freedom, or just the knowledge that the freedoms are there…”. It’s difficult when you have no new options, no way the change the status quo, nothing different or interesting to look forward to. When all is said and done, I am still incredibly blessed, even if a little more wiggle room would be nice. Hoping you and yours have a blessed holiday and New Year!

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    • lynnefisher says:

      It was difficult to put into words, Alexander, for some reason – it seems a trivial thing at first sight, but it goes quite deep, so I’m reassured that it resonated with you. ‘Wiggle room’ is exactly it! Yes, I’m very fortunate too and family are fine. Wishing you a lovely Christmas and a bit more wiggle room for the new year :>)

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  7. anne54 says:

    “Stuck” is a great word to describe the feeling, and I like your image of waiting for the tide to come. We have chatted before about liminal time, and I suspect that nothing can rush that time. It will finish when it is time to emerge into the new. I am glad that you are able to create. It must be so difficult for people who don’t have that ability to go within themselves.
    We are very fortunate here in Melbourne. Our lockdown period of a few months ago has given us the chance to be with loved ones this Christmas, which is not the case for so many people around the world. Thank you for your wishes of forward flow, I wish that you may be able to find that momentum yourself.

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    • lynnefisher says:

      Thank you, Anne. Yes, I can see the connection to liminal time – a ‘Betwixt and between’ state. And emerging into the new will have to be a different new which takes its own time to be realised and accepted in the waiting, where freedoms are to be found once more. This new more transmissable variant of the virus has just changed/destroyed what people were beginning to come to terms with, so it’s the next challenge (not to mention getting a vaccine to people and BREXIT (aarg!) I wonder how people manage without being able to go within to find stimulation and meaningful things to do, so I’m more than ever grateful for creativity. So pleased Christmas can be with family where you are – that is a lovely forward flow!

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  8. Sumi Singh says:

    Wishing you a blessed Christmas, Lynne:-) I cannot wait to be free to do what I want again, without a mask in the future. I look forward to that day with faith and hope.

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  9. Thank you, Lynne. Thank you also for reading and reviewing my novel this year. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you!

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  10. inkbiotic says:

    I love that work in progress! I hope you post it up when finished. Thank you for bringing calming thoughts to the crisis as always. Wishing you a creative, happy Christmas! 🙂

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    • lynnefisher says:

      Will do, Petra, and thank you! Stay safe where you are in ‘plague land’. Actually I read my way through Daniel Defoe’s 1665 memoir account of the London plague and was surprised how much resonated – terms like mass gatherings, mask wearing, limited shopping, restricted handling of food, and people trying to get away from it to another part of the country. Anyway, wishing you a cosy christmas where you are, and some good things for 2021. I’ll be checking in with your blog too. Cheers for now.

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  11. So much of this post resonates. The wall hanging is so vivid and exquisite. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and yours. x

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